Creator’s Diary 創作筆記

001: The Spark 初心

Banky Yeung 楊秉基

熟悉我的朋友或觀眾,大概都知道我有個習慣——每當一個新創作步入最後階段,我總喜歡留下「創作筆記」。寫筆記的過程,就像慢慢回味一趟旅程。當筆落在紙上,代表這趟旅程已經走到一個可以回望的位點。換句話說,當我開始動筆記下《鹹魚肉餅豬仔包》這齣戲,也大致完成了它的八八九九。是時候,讓一切有個交代,也讓自己好好說說那份初心。

這篇筆記的配圖我選了一張特別有意義的相片。照片裡那件Tee,對我來說是戲劇人生的第一個印記。那是我第一次正式參與戲劇創作的時期,和一班夥伴一同成立劇團,親手設計團Tee,印上我們的名字與口號。青春時什麼都不怕,滿腔熱血,覺得戲劇可以改變世界,也可以讓自己發光。

團Tee我一直珍藏著。創作《鹹魚肉餅豬仔包》的時候,不知怎的,想起了它。於是特意翻了整個劇團的舊貨倉,把它找回來。一翻開箱子,那熟悉的棉布氣味、那行舊字體,所有回憶湧上心頭。我決定把紀念Tee送給每一位演員。每人兩件,因為每日排舞排戲都會不斷流汗。這團Tee也記錄我們一起走過這段旅程的紀念。當看到他們穿上那件Tee、眼裡帶著笑時,我真的很快樂。有些情感不需要太多言語,光是一個眼神,就足夠傳遞。

這次合作的演員們,大部分都比我年輕許多。這也讓我第一次真切感受到「Generation Gap」這回事。我總笑說他們來自一個我不太懂的時代——流行的音樂、語言、文化審美都不同。但奇妙的是,戲劇卻成為了我們之間最穩固的橋樑。只要一走進排練場,我們就不分世代、不分背景,單純以「創作者」的身份共同呼吸。

我特別敬佩這一代年輕人。不是因為他們的技巧,而是他們懂得選擇戲劇作為表達自己的途徑。這個時代節奏太快,每個人都在追逐即時回報,而戲劇恰恰相反——它需要等待、需要耐性、需要一次又一次撞牆之後的重來。能堅持兩個多月,面對像我這種「沒人性」的導演(他們的形容不是沒有道理的),還能笑著排、笑著改,我打心底裡佩服他們。

Tee 的背後當然有故事。那時候的劇團名叫「戲燄 Drama Fire」。年輕的我們,每個人都像火焰一樣,有著燃燒不盡的熱情。那時我為劇團寫下了一句 Slogan:「*Drama Gives You Fire*」。意思再簡單不過——戲劇會給你火,給你能量,給你繼續向前的力量。多年後回看,這句話依然是我創作的信念。戲劇不只是一門藝術,它是一種生命的方式,是我與世界溝通的語言,是我看見人與人之間溫度的窗口。

有時候,我會問自己,為什麼到今天還在做戲。其實理由從來沒變過——因為戲劇總能讓我重新找回初心。對我來說,每一次新的創作,都是一次重新學會「相信」的過程。相信人、相信故事、相信創作仍然有改變什麼的可能性。

《鹹魚肉餅豬仔包》就是這樣的一齣戲。它的故事看似「小」,講的是一群普通人、幾段不完美的關係,但其實裡面藏著我們每個人都曾經經歷過的掙扎與盼望。我想說的,不只是鹹魚、肉餅與豬仔包,而是那種「平凡人也可以有夢」的信念。當你肯相信一點點、堅持多一下,戲劇就會回報你一團火。

遇上這群年輕人,真的很好。從他們身上,我又看見了那團火的模樣——明亮、單純、頑強。我想,這就是我一直以來的「初心」。戲劇讓我燃起那團火,而我希望,能把這團火,一點一滴傳給下一個人。

I am used to rounding up my creative process as a new work is approaching its final phase, and my friends and fellow audiences know of this ritual pretty well. While penning this process, my mind takes me back to my initial passion for drama performance.

This photo means a lot to me, the T-shirt marked the first milestone of my theatrical journey. Being fearless and passionate, the like-minded fellows and I set up a theatre group, and it marked my first, formal dramatic composition. The passion spanned from creation, logistics to the customisation of our own T-shirt.

When composing Salted Fish Rhapsody. I unloaded the box of T-shirts from the warehouse, and had decided to give one to each performer. Each performer, irrespective of their roles, all dance and sweat hard during our rehearsals. The message of the T-shirt is in fact self-explanatory: both the gaze and body language ignite the innermost dream for a good drama.

I confess that I’m experiencing the ‘generation gap’, as the majority of the actors are much younger than me, meaning we have a more diverse taste in pop music, language and cultural aesthetics. But for me, the magic of theatre happens when we enter the rehearsal space. We then identify ourselves as part of the creative process, so age and background become immaterial, and we all breathe for a more fruitful performance.

I genuinely respect the younger generation. What impresses me the most is not how skilled they can be; rather, they wisely choose drama as their way of expression. It is by no means easy especially when our society stresses efficiency and immediate return. Drama is the exact opposite, requiring us to be patient and experimental. I respect these young performers who could put up with my strictness (I feel for them too) and embrace the challenging rehearsals in the past two months.

The T-shirt is from the theatre group named ‘Drama Fire’. Young and passionate performers like us can spend endless nights refining our work, and such passion sparked our slogan: ‘Drama Gives You Fire’. I’m glad that I share this initial passion some years after; and it is more than a spark. I hold onto the belief that drama is beyond art; it is a way of life where such a raw, passionate fire should be passed on to young performers. I feel especially touched when I see a lot of good qualities in the fame within them: being bright, childlike and persistent.

I wrote Salted Fish Rhapsody for those who believe in the power of drama. The passion ignites the storytelling of our ordinary, yet noteworthy life. Salted fish, pork patties and piggy buns are more than food. The seemingly ordinary combination reminds us to stay hopeful and dream big in the midst of challenges. There is light at the end of the tunnel for all of us, and it has always been my intention to pass the torch to the next generation.